Prayer Request: heartbroken and depressed

hello I really need your prayers. I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years without a reason or an explanation. He left me and never came back. I spent half a month crying all day wanting to die and then something really random happened, I met another boy that I started liking and he actually got me out of that. 3 months went by and he broke up with me too. There were a lot of problems with the timing from the start and I knew this wouldn’t work but at some point of time I actually tried to make it work and I understood that except from timing there were other reasons to that we wouldn’t work. right now I feel really sad because I can’t seem to keep anybody in my life and I don’t really feel like I can be close with people or friends that’s why I always have a bf I never really knone how it is to not have a boyfriend and except from that I really want to have a serious relationship. I love being a girlfriend and it’s the only place where I get validation from. I know that most people would tell me to sit a little with myself and I will. but romantic love is the most important thing in my life always I love being in love and spending time with my my person, but I just feel like I’ve lost the ability to believe in love and I can’t really believe the word forever because I’ve heard it so many times from my first boyfriend and he left me without an explanation. please pray for me to feel better to have fun again and to forget my last relationships. I am in my early 20s and I am already so disappointed.